Modern Cock Hunt

Stories of a gay tween

Missing clothes and Latin boys.

26. January 2018

This is the story of my first visit to a gay sauna and my experience in it.

Every week I travel to different cities. This trip began with a rather disappointing situation. My suitcase got stolen or lost – so I was on a business trip with no suit and lost my favourite ties.

First thing in the morning I decided to go out and find myself a nice new suit from some boutique in town. Being determined and with just a spare t-shirt in my bag, I found a suit which would fit me and had a few hours to kill before the meeting. It was a cold day and I needed to calm down. Whilst drinking tea in a small restaurant I found myself chatting with two guys from Latin America who were also just visiting. We decided all to meet up and to go to a gay sauna. Neither of them had their own hotel room and I had to check-out already. For some reason it felt a bit unreal – we met at a big square and took a stroll to the sauna. Both guys had nice brown skin and very hot faces. We were giggling and I saw that one of them had a boner in his pants. He was quite shy. It was his first time at a gay sauna. We undressed, put our towels on and went downstairs.

It was the early afternoon and the sauna wasn’t packed. Somewhere in the back you could hear guys moaning and in some strange dark corners daddies were standing and waiting for someone to walk by. The shy guy felt a bit uncomfortable so we’ve decided to begin the experience not with the dark room, but with a regular sauna booth. Finally, I was in the mood to relax; hot guys, no suit to worry about, and the nice smell of eucalyptus.

We decided to explore a bit and started to play with each other. I’ve noticed another young guy sitting in the corner who was watching how I was sucking both guys. Our eyes met and I knew that he wanted it, too. But my shy guy wasn’t shy anymore and pushed his nice cut dick deep into my mouth. I was kinda busy and the blonde guy from the corner disappeared.

After the other one came all over my body I decided to take a quick shower. In the meantime, my companions disappeared in the dark and I was walking around without my glasses and was trying to find them. I heard someone taking deep breaths around the corner and continued walking towards him. It wasn’t shy guy and he was surrounded by some hot guys who were all looking how he was stroking his dick. He saw me and pushed me down so I could continue sucking him. The others were getting closer and at some point I felt pre-cum on my back. I turned around and this 40-year-old guy with a really long dick was staring at me. His pounding dick was juicy and yummy. I’ve enjoyed him for quite some time and got pulled back to the other side. I thought the shy guy wanted my attention back. So I turned around and it was the guy from the corner who finally was next to me. Oh boy, he was hard as a solid rock and waking very fast. He came all over my face and licked it off my cheek.

Having all these hot guys surrounding me in a steamy room overwhelmed me and I went to a sauna booth just to relax a bit. What a spontaneous sauna experience. After a while, I took a shower, changed into my clothes and went to the meeting. What a day.


State of the blog.

17. December 2017

The year is coming to an end and everybody is stressed about about Christmas, vacation and deadlines at work. I’m finishing off some projects and am quite satisfied with my professional year. How about you guys? Did the year turn out to be the way you expected?

Everything is great at home. My boyfriend and I visited some concerts over the past few weeks, cooked with friends and enjoyed some quality time.

Our relationship is doing very well – ever since I started the idea for this blog and now several months have passed. In my first naive phase I though that I’d be able to experience my relationship change and constantly write about it; well – now I know better. It was quite difficult to change my attitude and value aspects of our relationship differently. I feel safe and even though the ‘open relationship‘ thing is happening I never felt as certain about my boyfriend as I am right now. Maybe thats the reason why I feel positive about getting this blog finally up and running.

Expect some deep thoughts, juicy stories, and recommendations.

– Alex


First weekend apart

20. March 2017

The past week has been more than great. We finally resolved our issues and focused our energy again on our professional lives as well as on being a good couple. Had a fun night out, wine and art, intense sex — everything you’d want to have.

Now I’m on a short trip overseas visiting my best friend. While I’m staying over at my friends house, my boyfriend is back at home on his own. Even though we talk and write each other I can not say that I’m not thinking about him maybe hooking up with someone while I’m gone. Since we are now in an open relationship one would assume that it should be ok. However — it is a new feeling that I need to get accustomed to. For the past few years we have been the only ones who fucked with each other. Now it is going to be different.

While the though of my boyfriend sleeping with someone else crosses my mind I can not honestly say that I’m angry or sad. It’s good, I suppose, yet something I still need to get accustomed to.

One will never know if something is going to happen over the course of this weekend. Don’t make the mistake and ask whether something did happen. Trust is very important in this sort of situation.


Here I am

20. March 2017

A few years ago I met this amazing guy and fell in love with him. It didn’t mutually spark immediately, but after a year we finally got together. He is the first person in my life to whom I opened up myself. I was/am proud to be his boyfriend and feeling his strong arm when cuddling in bed after a rough day is the best feeling one could only imagine.

It is a blessing for me to have him, yet, we are different.

He is an athletic guy, most certainly draws the attention of people on the street, smart and is finishing his studies. I’m a few years younger than my boyfriend, wear glasses and button-down shirts and people would consider calling me a nerd. We both try to help and encourage each other to become greater human beings and to dream big.

Over the course of the past few years our relationship has been monogamous. It has been one of the “agreements” from the very beginning. It was not a problem for me to stay that way and for most of the time my boyfriend kept his side of this promise as well. At the same time he has this urge to have sex with other men as well. Right now we are at this point in our relationship when it is up to us to see if we are strong enough to open up, but not to loose each other in an open relationship.

Being totally honest — I don’t know if I am the type of guy who can stay easy about a proposal such as this one, because for me having sex with my boyfriend is one of the most open, honest, and vulnerable moments. I completely forget all my problems for a few minutes and feel as if the two of us are the only two human beings existing. The way he looks into my eyes — deep, so deep as if he’d be able to look into my soul.

I am worried that this could get lost in the course of an open relationship, because sex would become some sort of tool to fulfill urges.

Where is the border between sex with my boyfriend and sex with other men?

For some I might look like an old-fashioned guy who is closed-up and does not see certain opportunities in creating this sort of freedom within the relationship.

This journal are going to be my digital therapy-sessions in which I’m going to share my thoughts and stories from my life with the boy whom I love and do not want to loose. Let’s see how strong our relationship will be.